When I started fasting at the age of 8 or 9 years old, i was not even sure why i was doing this, i was told “maybe i should try it”, despite i did not have my first period at that time, i tried it ! Occasionally though i could not stand waiting to eat, it was very hard for me to stay without food and was stealing food and eating secretly before the Iftar time, i kept doing this habit as long as no one was watching me around, i mean i was not even sure what is all about, they told me to try, and i tried it. I bet, every child at my age at that time tried to do the same as me, we all tried at the End.

Almost 21 years, here i am, trying to take a decision if i can practice or i should just be easy on myself despite my difficulties. At the end of the day my intentions are pure ! They say, God looks first at the hearts of those who believe, it does not matter how much you practice, rather than what kind of good deeds you do in the absence or the presence of the others. A women went to Heaven because she fed a hungry Cat. And a Man went to Hell because he talked bad about others.

They are the smallest deeds and things someone could do, you might have all the confident about your practicing, but you are missing the smallest things that lies in between, what you say, how you act, and your intentions. There are things in this life which are beyond our thoughts and capabilities to make us think that we are the most confident people on this planet, yet if we dig deeper, we are nothing but a tiny and small part of this universe !

You have the pillars of your do’s and don’t’s , and what you think is correct according to your believes. People will keep judging, without stepping back and taking a look at their own actions and deeds. We are all full of mistakes, it easier though to point fingers out at others. Again, it is easier to judge than taking time to reflect our own actions and deeds.

I did not fast since almost 2 years, and maybe again this year, I do not want to justify it to others, rather than i am thinking, how many of us have stayed without food or drinks during the day, and thought what they doing was acceptable or even “Holy” …

Just a short post to reflect my own actions before trying to judge others, if you agree or disagree, that is your own decision and thoughts, they does not mean though that “I” or “You” are both wrong, or correct …

München

12.03.24

Zainab